I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want/need/desire to make my partner stay with me by creating an illusion of
safety for him in my family, and make him form relationships with my family
members and with that bind him to me for all eternity to be at my disposal as I
like.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want/need/desire to completely transform my partner into my family member, so
that I could manipulate him with memories and "what I have done for
him" into being/staying with me, so that I would not have to be alone and
face myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want/need/desire for my partner to be and become like siblings with my
siblings, so that I would have an easier time manipulating him into doing what
i want with those emotional bonds.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
manipulate my partner with the emotional bonds that he has created with my
family members, and extort him with their opinions of him (which I can also
manipulate), if he desn't do what I say and want.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
make my partner feel appreciated from my family's side by doing things for us,
so that I could further manipulate him with praising and making him feel good
about himself around me, so that he would want to spend as much time with me as
possible, and not wander around and hang with other people.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
try and prevent my partner from expanding himself with other people, simply
because I want him to be with me all the time, give me worth and value, because
I do not like myself and I do not accept myself by myself - so I
need/want/desire for him to do it for me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
go into absolute fear, whenever I see/perceive my partner wanting to be and
hang with other people, because if that happens - I will feel less than and
abandoned.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
manipulate my partner by letting him drive my car, and with that holding him on
a very short leash, so that I can call him and demand he come to me whenever I
want him to.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
use and abuse my partner in order to feel powerful and in control.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
control my partner with money and material safety in the future, which I know
is not real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
threaten my partner that I will take away his material safety in the future -
leave him - if he doesn't do as I say and demand.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
feel superior for manipulating my partner into being only with me and not
allowing him to expand with other people, and feel inferior whenever he does
that.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
define myself according to who my partner is spending time with, when he is not
with me, according to my own relationships that i have formed with those people
in my head.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
feel diminished, inferior and less than, whenever my partner spends time with
other people and not me.
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