Teacher character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to help x develop some self-directive principle, so that I could be praised for how good a 'teacher' I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take over my father's teacher character, because I perceived teachers as respectable and good people, who do things for the good of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to teach people things, when I see/perceive that they don't know something that I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to be seen/perceived by others as a 'good teacher', and get praise and recognition from them about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a teachery stance, when and as I try to explain something to someone who does not yet have the information that I am conveying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the teacher character in order to make myself feel superior to other people, because I've defined/perceived teachers as 'good people'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior to others, whenever I see/perceive that I have knowledge that other people don't.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that the more knowledge I have, the greater my worth is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and validate myself according to the amount of knowledge that I am able to present to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive myself as a 'smart person' and feel superior within it, instead of realising that I am creating inequality by doing so, because no being is smarter or stupider, we only have different positions within the system that enables or disables us from having a proper education.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/define myself as an 'educated person', and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create separation by defining some people as more educated and therefore superior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate and define education with being succesfull within the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to have a good education in the system, so that I could be perceived by others as superior and more than people without my level of education.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive myself as superior to other people, because I perceive that I have a broader general education and knowledge than most people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior to others, because I have some knowledge of biochemistry.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive natural sciences to be superior to societal studies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/define myself as a teacher and wish/want/need/desire to be a teacher, because I perceive/define the teaching calling to be nice and cool.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that teachers have great jobs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define/perceive teachers as respectable people, without realising how I am supporting separation within myself by doing so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the teacher character in order to make myself appear as smart, attractive and interesting to other people, and have them validate me as more than others for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that every time I try to teach something to someone, I am entering the teacher character that I took up from my father, therefore

I realise that when and as I want/need/desire to teach something to someone, I am actually wanting their recognition to be able to feel good/superior about myself, therefore I stop, I breathe, I do not allow myself to go into teacher character. Instead I investigate and remove the point with self-forgiveness, and direct myself in breath with common sense towards what is best for all.

"I will form relationships with my partner's family, so that I wouldn't have to be absolutely self-responsible" character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to hide behind my partner in terms of material safety, and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie to myself and pretend and make myself appear that I am helpful and helping my partner, in order to hide from myself the fact that I am relying on their material and financial stability to keep me safe in the future in this world, instead of realising that I need to end these kinds of relationships in order to learn to stand on my own.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to spend as much time as possible with my partner's family, in order for me to efficiently infiltrate their ranks and make them like me, so that I could seem to be part of them, could live with them and therefore wouldn't have to take absolute self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed of myself for hiding behind my partner and hoping that I will have material and financial stability with them in the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that my partner will provide me with material and financial safety and security in the future, if I do things for them now and make myself appear to be a helpful and nice person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form relationships with my partner's family in order to keep myself in interaction with them, so that I could justify being and living with them in the future,  because I do not feel safe and secure on my own.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a character that my partner's family will like, in order for me to be able to live with them in the future, and with that secure my own material and financial easy street in the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that I like the people in my partner's 

family, so that they would like me back and accept me as a family member and allow me to be/live with them in the future, so that I wouldn't have to struggle and fend for myself on my own.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of living on my own in the future and fending for myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise how I am abdicating my self-responsibility by forming relationships with my partner's family members.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope/wish/want/need/desire for my partner's family to see me as a valuable asset to the family, hard-working and non-complaining, so that I would secure my place among them in the future and be able to justify it with "I am helpful".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to gossip and talk shit about my partner's family with my partner behind their back, in that creating an even more special relationship with my partner, so that 

I would ensure that I would never be left to fend for myself, but would always have a safehaven with my partner at all times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my self-dignity in order to compromise myself by creating a character that my partner's family will like and want to support me in the future, so that I would not have to be absolutely self-responsible, but could hide behind them and make them responsible for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create relationships with my partner's family in order to not have to take absolute self-responsibility for myself and my world, instead of remaining here in breath and directing myself with common sense towards what is best for all.

When and as I see forming/creating/supporting relationships with other people in my head in order to avoid having to take absolute self-responsibility, I stop, I breathe, I investigate the point, relase it with self-forgiveness, and direct myself in breath with common sense towards what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop and remove all relationships, because I realise that I form relationships with people in order to not have to take absolute responsibility for myself and my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bind myself to my partner by allowing him and his parents to take care of me in terms of giving me their car to drive and giving me money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be nice to my partner's parents and suck up to them and flatter them and their work/intelligence/achievements/children in order to manipulate them into liking me and wanting me around in the future, so that I could enjoy their home and not have to deal with having to be absolutely self-responsible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to envy my partner because i perceive that he has more material stability within this world than me, and blame him that he is better off than me, and should feel bad about that, and want to help me, so that I would not have to be absolutely self-responsible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to infiltrate my partner's family who I perceive to be more materially and financially stable than my own, in order to be able to enjoy that stability and safety and security in the future, instead of realising that by forming relationships with them in order to infiltrate them, I am abdicating my responsibility for myself in the future and with that I am abdicating my power to the people I have formed relationhsips with, thus - I am making myself dependant on their "will" and thus - I am gambling - and gamblers usually loose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to have a rich partner, so that I wouldn't have to work too hard in this world in order to secure my survival, instead of realising how by doing so I am compromising myself and abdicating my self-responsibility and self-certainty and exchanging  them for a gamble.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that in order to have a dignified life, I must find a partner with a lot of money, instead of realising how self-interested I am for wanting a better life for myself in the face of children dying from famine in this world.

"I'll make my partner form relationships with my family, so that he would never leave me" character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to make my partner stay with me by creating an illusion of safety for him in my family, and make him form relationships with my family members and with that bind him to me for all eternity to be at my disposal as I like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to completely transform my partner into my family member, so that I could manipulate him with memories and "what I have done for him" into being/staying with me, so that I would not have to be alone and face myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire for my partner to be and become like siblings with my siblings, so that I would have an easier time manipulating him into doing what i want with those emotional bonds.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate my partner with the emotional bonds that he has created with my family members, and extort him with their opinions of him (which I can also manipulate), if he desn't do what I say and want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make my partner feel appreciated from my family's side by doing things for us, so that I could further manipulate him with praising and making him feel good about himself around me, so that he would want to spend as much time with me as possible, and not wander around and hang with other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and prevent my partner from expanding himself with other people, simply because I want him to be with me all the time, give me worth and value, because I do not like myself and I do not accept myself by myself - so I need/want/desire for him to do it for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into absolute fear, whenever I see/perceive my partner wanting to be and hang with other people, because if that happens - I will feel less than and abandoned.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate my partner by letting him drive my car, and with that holding him on a very short leash, so that I can call him and demand he come to me whenever I want him to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use and abuse my partner in order to feel powerful and in control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to control my partner with money and material safety in the future, which I know is not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to threaten my partner that I will take away his material safety in the future - leave him - if he doesn't do as I say and demand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior for manipulating my partner into being only with me and not allowing him to expand with other people, and feel inferior whenever he does that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to who my partner is spending time with, when he is not with me, according to my own relationships that i have formed with those people in my head.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel diminished, inferior and less than, whenever my partner spends time with other people and not me.

"You're such awesome support, I couldn't do this without you" character

We tend to go into different personalities, whenever we want to manipulate people into doing something for us, when we do not want to take self-responsibility. We manipulate with fear, anger, sadness, happiness, readiness, willingness to learn... a particular character of mine within the "nice, flirtatious personality" is one that comes out, when I want to manipulate someone into giving me attention and energy. I call it "you're so assisting and supportive to me, I could not possibly do this without your help, stay and help me forever" character.

It's a very deceitful character, one that makes sure that the recipient of those words feels appreciated, valued, respected and cherished, and above all, they're designed to make them stay close to us and give us attention, with which we assure ourselves safety and survival in the future - by manipulating the person, who we want to make responsible for ourselves so we wouldn't have to be, with nice words of dependency.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that I cannot do something on my own, so that I could lie to another that I cannot do it, and with energetic words of praise of their effectiveness in the subject make them stay with me and bind them to be at my disposal whenever I want them to be.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate another person with playing on their ego with words.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use/abuse my knowledge of another person's ego in order to emotionally manipulate them into my own self-interest.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to manipulate my partner into liking me and wanting to be with me by praising him and flattering him and telling him how much better he is than me, so that I would appear to be worshiping him, so that he would want to stick around and be with me in a relationship.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid that I will loose a relationship, if I do not praise and flatter people, instead of remaining here in breath and acknowledging other people as equals, which do not want to be manipulated, just like I don't want to be manipulated.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with annoyance and resentment, whenever I see/perceive someone trying to manipulate me with niceness and asking for assistance from an emotional manipulation starting point, instead of realising that I am reacting, because I have not cleared the point yet myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to flatter my partner and fill his ears with praise about how great a support he is to other people in our mutual surroundings, so that I would achieve him wanting to be around me and prove himself as helpful and assisting and supportive, so that I would ensure my survival and safety within this capitalistic system of abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use and abuse other people's emotional attachment to me, to manipulate them into doing things for me and my self-interest, in order to secure my own safety and survival within the capitalistic system of abuse, instead of realising my self-responsibility towards myself and others to share and spread the knowledge that I have applied for myself succesfully and freed myself enough to see how I am an emotional slave of the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with anger, whenever I see controlling going on in relationships, which is not being realized by the participants, instead of realising that I see and react to control because I want to control and manipulate my surroundings in self-interest for safety and survival, rather than directing myself with common sense and trust myself unconditionally and stay here in breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/need/desire to manipulate my surroundings with words and with that abdicate my self-responsibility because of self-interest for survival and safety, instead of speaking only after I have cleared my starting point for speaking into equality